It occurs to me — well, it occurred to me when I initially posted the news about my postdoc — that my already lightweight veil of semi-anonymity has become a whole lot sheerer.* Of course, a determined and clever person could probably have already worked out my current location and my full name. But now it’s going to be a lot easier to figure out my true identity. I find, also, that now that I’ve been doing this blogging thing for a while, and now that I’m exiting my teaching job, I’m less inclined to maintain the semi-anonymity.
Initially, I was leery of people in my department finding out about my ambivalence about academia. I was also leery about students coming across my blog; I always preferred to maintain a distinction between my teaching and my personal life. But I’m not going back to teaching, and I stopped worrying about disclosing my career-change plans months ago.
I no longer feel like it’s a big risk for me to be critical of the current state of academia in my own name (I’m hardly the only one saying these things, after all). And I don’t think there’s anything in this blog that I’d be embarrassed to have associated with myself. I may display my amateurishness in fields I haven’t studied, or get cranky from time to time, or turn the occasional clunky sentence, or go on about things I haven’t meticulously researched, or yammer narcissistically about the future of this blog, but none of this strikes me as a big deal for people in my real life to know.
There’s still the “mom finds out about blog” factor (anyone else remember that Onion article? and when did the Onion go all “Premium,” anyway? Bastards!). I’m still not sure if I want this weblog to pop up when someone does a Google search for my full name. But I’m aware that I’m not really anonymous here, and I’m okay with that.
Somewhat related is the question of what I want this space to become now that I’m heading away from the academic track. I may well continue to post about life after academia, or my new library career path, or what I’m thinking about if I decide to keep up my scholarly pursuits in my spare time. Or I could just continue with the miscellany of topics I’ve already been posting about. I admire people with the energy and thoroughness to maintain specialized-topic blogs, but I’m not one of them. This blog will, I suspect, continue to be eclectic in the extreme — much like its author, who has always been fond of juggling too many interests to keep up with all at once.
* I’m thinking of Karita Mattila‘s Dance of the Seven Veils in the Met’s production of Salome this past season. Which I didn’t see, but I heard it was fabulous.